This has to stop.

Have you experienced being hurt and hurting back the ones you only want to love? It happened to me... again. sigh...

I wonder how Jesus responded when being hurt by people He loves? I'm sure He was no doormat nor pushover.

I know... I believe it's because He was so in tune with His heart in His Father's love that He was so in love, having such a great sense of acceptance, significance, and security that when being hurt, He remained in His Father's love. Hence, He was graced with the strength from within not to hurt back. He was graced with the strength from within to acknowledge the hurt and to forgive right away. He was graced with the strength from within to lovingly speak the truth and dealt with the real issue at hand — gently but firmly. Such strength in humility.

sigh... I forget my Father's love for me so easily. Thus I react verbally too quickly... foolishly... thus.... harshly/cruelly. what a wretched person I am. I'm sorry to have hurt you... again.

Jesus, I'm so tired of all this. This has to stop.

I don't want to verbally assault those who verbally assault me. It can all be happening so subtly. And so it may be easy for people to deny. I see so many angry people being unaware of their own anger... And not being empowered to validate/face some of those deep-seated, hidden anger and to let it out in a healthy way. I have so much to learn in releasing my anger healthily too.

Jesus, I'm sorry. Help me. Save me. I want my heart to be more like Yours. I want to learn from You — You who are gentle and humble at heart, and I will find rest for my soul. Thank You.